I wrote and published this entry in September 2017. For some reason, I moved it back to drafts. I thought about our nurse practitioner for the first time in a long time the other day. While I'm no longer angry, it still stings that she treated us the way she did. So I'm sharing this [...]
National Infertility Awareness Week
It's National Infertility Awareness Week. Did you know that 1 in 8 couples struggle to conceive? Often times, people think asking a couple when they’re going to have a baby (or another baby) is a harmless question. What they don’t realize is that couple may have been trying to conceive unsuccessfully for months or even [...]
Vulnerability
As a bereaved mother and blogger, connecting with new people who haven’t walked a similar path creates a renewed sense of vulnerability. Everything I write about here is very personal. That was my intention when I first started writing about Elliot, my grief, and all the significant experiences that have followed. I spent the first [...]
Giving Thanks with a Full Heart, Three Years Later – Part I
I can’t believe it’s been so long since my last blog entry. SO much has happened since February when we announced our family was growing from four to five. We went from this - To this - And then to this - Our sweet little Isla was born at 37 weeks via elective C-section on August [...]
Living In the Moment
It’s been fairly quiet here lately. Not because I haven’t wanted to write. I miss writing quite a bit, actually. Life is just busy, and I haven’t figured out how to work writing back into it on a regular basis. I’m still trying to figure out what this blog should really be about. I know [...]
Naming Elliot
I know I've already shared a little of the story behind this album and what it means to us. I listened to it this morning and wanted to share more. The night before the album release date was announced, I dreamed about a little girl. She was about 4-5 years old and had a full [...]
Brynn’s Birth Story – Part 2
Let's back up for a moment. In my last post, I skipped over something that happened the night before Brynn’s birth. When we learned Brynn had changed positions, our OB had several questions. Specifically, when my last Lovenox injection was administered and whether or not I could have the C-section under local anesthesia. I would [...]
Brynn’s Birth Story, Part 1
It has taken me six months to sit down and write about this part of our journey. Brynn's birth. It was unpredictable and scary, but it happened in the most beautiful and perfect way. It’s kind of a long story, so I have divided it into two parts. Part I Brynn spent most of her [...]
Saying My Piece
Last fall, a blog post written by a grieving mother was shared in the loss community. I haven’t looked at it since it was first shared, so I can’t quote it directly. Basically, it was about sharing pregnancy and birth announcements in pregnancy and infant loss support groups, and how hurtful those announcements can be. [...]
Thirty-Three
Tomorrow at 9:11pm, I will officially be 34 years old. When I was a teenager, 34 seemed so ancient. It probably seemed ancient when I was in my mid-twenties, too. Thirty-four is still pretty young (I think!), but some days, I feel old. I aged a lot in the year following Elliot’s stillbirth. I was [...]
Walking With Elliot 