I've tried to write a new blog post at least a dozen times since my last update. I've thought about writing every day since then, but I've struggled to find my words. I went into the city today for the second time since Brynn's arrival. The first time was emotional. I felt like I didn't [...]
Author: Lori Davis
She’s Here
I am beyond happy and relieved to share that Brynn Josephine arrived safely in our arms via cesarean section on November 29th at 8:16am. She was 6lbs 9oz and 19 inches. Brynn is now 12 days old, and I can't believe how fast the time is passing already. She's brought us so much joy and [...]
Our Final Stretch
I honestly can't believe I'm about to type the following words. Our induction is set for just after 37 weeks. That's the end of this month/very beginning of next month. I'm full of so many emotions right now. I know Ben is too, but he's doing a great job of keeping me grounded and sane. [...]
Capture Your Grief – Day 21
Relationships I haven't been participating in this project much lately. I hope to finish out the month strong, though. We'll see... Today's subject is relationships. I've actually been thinking a lot about my relationship with Ben and how it has changed since we lost Elliot. This topic seems like perfect timing for us, especially as we go into [...]
How are you doing…really?
***Trigger warning - current pregnancy discussed.*** How are you doing...really? This is such a loaded question for any grieving parent, especially a mama pregnant after loss. I had just met with my high risk specialist and was trying to process everything we had talked about when E, my perinatal counselor/unofficial PAL advocate and support person, [...]
Capture Your Grief – Day 11
Creative Heartwork Have you done anything special to memorialize your child? When Elliot was born, Ben and I immediately felt the need to memorialize her. We've done several things over the past 18 months that we hold very close to our hearts. We got memorial tattoos. This is mine. And Ben's We planted a Cherokee [...]
Capture Your Grief – Day 8
...one day late. Beautiful Mysteries My beautiful daughter, you are my greatest mystery. I will always wonder who you would have been in this life. Someday, we will be together again. But to you, where you are, that day has already come. You are a happy 18-month-old toddler. You have beautiful, brown hair with hints [...]
Capture Your Grief – Day 6
Empathy Pregnancy and Infant Loss is a really tough subject. I didn't realize how many families are affected by it until it happened to us. It makes people uncomfortable but that doesn't mean it should be ignored, especially when it happens to a family member or friend. Sadly, babies die. It's heartbreaking, but it's true. [...]
My Girls
**Trigger warning – current pregnancy discussed** As you may know, I am participating in Carly Marie’s Capture Your Grief Project for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. So far, it’s going okay. I’ve decided not to step too far outside my comfort zone this year. I want to acknowledge my grief and protect my heart [...]
Capture Your Grief – Day 3
What It Felt Like I don’t even know where to begin. Learning that Elliot had passed away in utero was a complete out of body experience. Like I was sitting in the corner of the room watching someone else’s life fall apart. I couldn’t make sense of any of it. I was in such a [...]
Walking With Elliot 