I can’t believe it’s been so long since my last blog entry. SO much has happened since February when we announced our family was growing from four to five. We went from this - To this - And then to this - Our sweet little Isla was born at 37 weeks via elective C-section on August [...]
Category: A New Chapter
Living In the Moment
It’s been fairly quiet here lately. Not because I haven’t wanted to write. I miss writing quite a bit, actually. Life is just busy, and I haven’t figured out how to work writing back into it on a regular basis. I’m still trying to figure out what this blog should really be about. I know [...]
Brynn’s Birth Story – Part 2
Let's back up for a moment. In my last post, I skipped over something that happened the night before Brynn’s birth. When we learned Brynn had changed positions, our OB had several questions. Specifically, when my last Lovenox injection was administered and whether or not I could have the C-section under local anesthesia. I would [...]
Brynn’s Birth Story, Part 1
It has taken me six months to sit down and write about this part of our journey. Brynn's birth. It was unpredictable and scary, but it happened in the most beautiful and perfect way. It’s kind of a long story, so I have divided it into two parts. Part I Brynn spent most of her [...]
Thirty-Three
Tomorrow at 9:11pm, I will officially be 34 years old. When I was a teenager, 34 seemed so ancient. It probably seemed ancient when I was in my mid-twenties, too. Thirty-four is still pretty young (I think!), but some days, I feel old. I aged a lot in the year following Elliot’s stillbirth. I was [...]
I’m Ready
I've tried to write a new blog post at least a dozen times since my last update. I've thought about writing every day since then, but I've struggled to find my words. I went into the city today for the second time since Brynn's arrival. The first time was emotional. I felt like I didn't [...]
She’s Here
I am beyond happy and relieved to share that Brynn Josephine arrived safely in our arms via cesarean section on November 29th at 8:16am. She was 6lbs 9oz and 19 inches. Brynn is now 12 days old, and I can't believe how fast the time is passing already. She's brought us so much joy and [...]
Our Final Stretch
I honestly can't believe I'm about to type the following words. Our induction is set for just after 37 weeks. That's the end of this month/very beginning of next month. I'm full of so many emotions right now. I know Ben is too, but he's doing a great job of keeping me grounded and sane. [...]
How are you doing…really?
***Trigger warning - current pregnancy discussed.*** How are you doing...really? This is such a loaded question for any grieving parent, especially a mama pregnant after loss. I had just met with my high risk specialist and was trying to process everything we had talked about when E, my perinatal counselor/unofficial PAL advocate and support person, [...]
My Girls
**Trigger warning – current pregnancy discussed** As you may know, I am participating in Carly Marie’s Capture Your Grief Project for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. So far, it’s going okay. I’ve decided not to step too far outside my comfort zone this year. I want to acknowledge my grief and protect my heart [...]
Walking With Elliot 