One of the first things I was told when Elliot passed away was the intensity of grief comes in waves. Usually, I’m standing at the edge of water, sun shining down on my face, waiting for her. Waiting for her to return to me, in some form or another. Just waiting. Other times, I’m in… Continue reading Waves
I know I’ve already shared a little of the story behind this album and what it means to us. I listened to it this morning and wanted to share more. The night before the album release date was announced, I dreamed about a little girl. She was about 4-5 years old and had a full… Continue reading Naming Elliot
Last fall, a blog post written by a grieving mother was shared in the loss community. I haven’t looked at it since it was first shared, so I can’t quote it directly. Basically, it was about sharing pregnancy and birth announcements in pregnancy and infant loss support groups, and how hurtful those announcements can be.… Continue reading Saying My Piece
I am beyond happy and relieved to share that Brynn Josephine arrived safely in our arms via cesarean section on November 29th at 8:16am. She was 6lbs 9oz and 19 inches. Brynn is now 12 days old, and I can’t believe how fast the time is passing already. She’s brought us so much joy and… Continue reading She’s Here
***Trigger warning – current pregnancy discussed.*** How are you doing…really? This is such a loaded question for any grieving parent, especially a mama pregnant after loss. I had just met with my high risk specialist and was trying to process everything we had talked about when E, my perinatal counselor/unofficial PAL advocate and support person,… Continue reading How are you doing…really?
**Trigger warning – current pregnancy discussed** As you may know, I am participating in Carly Marie’s Capture Your Grief Project for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. So far, it’s going okay. I’ve decided not to step too far outside my comfort zone this year. I want to acknowledge my grief and protect my heart… Continue reading My Girls
Last night, Ben and I found ourselves sitting outside Labor & Delivery waiting to be checked in, just as we had done 17 months earlier with Elliot. This was our first visit to L&D with Brynn. I’m relieved to tell you everything is okay. Yesterday morning started off great. I went to my weekly OB… Continue reading Peace of Mind, Peace of Heart